flaming jewels

s w a l l o w/BLOOD

Your boot heels tap my throat
silver-toed
you dance on my speech
it's a tango, a waltz
& I
swallow blood, swallow blood.

Kick me...1, 2, 3--
set my spirit free
violate my bodily integrity
for I've written you out of my mind.

My throat crackles & pops
what has splintered inside?
(my mind?)
the words are coming undone--
the words are all
undone--

I would say
"I love you"
("love you")
but instead I
swallow blood, swallow blood.

You kneel on me
beat a staccato rhythm on my chest
play me
strike me...1, 2, 3
set my soul free
you've violated my integrity.

my lungs are filling
with blood
my mouth is filling
with blood
sun & moon & stars are filling
my brain
(a whole universe of pain)

when the last boundary is broken,
will I be free?
(will I have any integrity?)

You've re-written yourself in my mind
but the words are
coming undone--
and the bleeding
has only
begun--

I would say
"fuck you"
("fuck")
but instead I
swallow blood, swallow blood.

Your power peaks
a wild crescendo--
my heels jitterbug beneath you
I hear my pelvis crack
as you seize my womb
and all my boundaries are breached.

all my boundaries are breached.

I swallow blood
swallow blood

Am I free? Can you see?
No words, only a gag reflex
the compulsory jerking
of my throat.

swallow blood
I swallow blood.

And I would say
"let me help you"
("help")
("you")
but the words are undone--
& all I can do is
swallow blood
swallow blood

s w a l l o w/BLOOD

jewel@gleeful.com
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